Dream Log 12-11-2008 Thursday Morning

I was in a store purchasing two items chatting with the checkout clerk. Somehow she wanted to give me a bag of cement. She was going to give it to me on the sly, without me paying for it. I'm standing there with the cart in front of me and say no thanks to the free bag of cement. The clerk just walks away and I'm taken back a bit by this. Then another clerk shows up behind the register to finish checking me out. She hands me four rolls of film on the sly, like here you can have these (free). I'm thinking how can this store make any money if the clerks are just giving things away. I take them and then start to think "should I, or shouldn't I" take them. I know that it's wrong. Maybe the clerk just wanted me to put them back down with these other rolls of film near the checkout. I end up walking towards the exit with them and know that I'm technically stealing.  As I reach the outside its dark with a few parking lot lights on casting shadows making the lot look ominous. I'm nervous for not paying for the film. I look down at them in my hands and notice that the speed of the film is 9/10^th. I'm confused thinking that it should be something like 200 or 400. As I'm fumbling with them I end up dropping them to the ground. When I bend over to pick them up I just know security will be right behind me asking me to come back into the store with them for shoplifting.  I manage to pick them up with no incidents. My van is of course parked in the back of the lot. Half way there I can see a shadow coming up from behind me. I glance back to see a women walking to her car but being very cautious because of my presence. I hit the keyfob to unlock my van as a way of letting her know that I'm am harmless and just trying to get to my vehicle also. Once at my van I notice the parking lot is jammed full of cars. My van is blocking the way, nobody can go anywhere.  I look at the car behind me and notice that is looks like it's been in a little fender bender, a couple of pieces of the car are just lying on the ground. I'm thinking to myself something doesn't seem right here. I glance back to look at my van  but notice it's not there but I see my truck, my other vehicle, for some reason in a parking spot a few yards away. "This can't be right", I think. Then it hits me, this might be a dream. My hearts begins to race and I think that if this is a dream I should just throw my keys as hard as I can into the side of the car next to me. But what if it's not a dream I think. So I walk over to my truck and unlock the door and an old friend of mine is sitting in it (Wayne) with some eightish year old boy. I know instantly that this HAS to be a dream.  I'm very excited and can feel the adrenalin flowing. I warn myself not to get too excited because it could wake me up. I forget about my friend and walk over to the grass at the skirt of the lot. I'm thinking to try and turn this lucidity into an OBE so I try to fly. I jump into the air like superman and do a belly flop back to the ground a few feet in front of me. I'm there laughing like a little kid. It was hilarious and I knew that I couldn't hurt myself because I was in a dream.  I know that I can't just fly and that it's a technique to just think it and it should happen. So I start to think of flying. I can feel slight vibrations coming over me and can perceive hemi-sync music flowing in my head. I'm still not going anywhere, then something wakes me.  This was about 5 am this morning.

Yeah I know it's long but thought I'd share. It forces me to journal my dream.

Love and Light,

Brad.E

Hey everyone,

Hope all is going well. It's that time of the week again,  but instead of getting prepped for Thursday night in a metaphysical way we are getting the turkey/ham/house ready for the holiday. It's nice to have a short work week and being with family.  Well my cold must finally be going away, I awoke this morning feeling like a million bucks. The daughter didn't have school, wife didn't have work, so I was the only one that got up at 6 this morning. So me, sitting there in the dark, loudly sipping on my coffee my mind was focused on the notion/saying that "everything happens for a reason".  I started telling my self that not everything happens for a reason, it can't. Hmm... cause and effect.....so my mind started going over every scenario that I could think of. Like did my dog die for a reason? Last week while playing around I knocked over the a plant and spilled dirt all over the carpet. Did that happen for a reason? What about when the wife backed into the mail truck? So again some people say that everything happens for a reason and then try and analyze that reason, look at every aspect of WHY did this happen, HOW did this happen. It's almost an over analization (yeah I meant to spell it that way) of what did happen. My thoughts are that just "things happen that's life". Life is a constant go and when everything is in motion things happen. So the cause is just life the effect is how you react to it. It allows you to shine and glow in the light that you are. Be loving, caring, giving, life happens it's your reaction to things in life that make the difference. Wow all this contemplation over my cup of coffee.

 So it's time to get ready for my day. Get tooth brush out, put some paste on it, and go to turn the water on. Lo and behold the cheap plastic handle brakes in half and I'm standing there with cold water handle in hand and no water coming out.  I just laugh about it and think to my self that I'll just use the hot to brush my teeth. I reach over to turn the hot on and guess what, the thing brakes just like the cold. Now I'm laughing and can't believe it. I actually find it comical. Now I don't sit there and over analyze why it happened and what hidden meaning does it have. Am I not supposed to brush my teeth today? Stay away from water? What did I do to cause this? Well nothing of course. It happens because life happens. The only reason if I needed to find one is that it allows me to be a loving, caring person. We all have the choice, we can shine by being loving and caring and not letting the things that life brings our way get us down. By looking at the bright side of things and moving along with what ever comes. Well my morning effects continued, after brushing my teeth in the kitchen sink I go and grab my coat out of the closet and guess what the hanger brakes. The wife is up by now and I'm joking to her that it's going to be a bad day. I throw the hanger away, put my coat on and grab my backpack, and out the door. I shut the door behind me and thump. My forward progress is abruptly halted when I notice that the straps from my backpack got stuck in the door. I go to release the straps and what do you know the door won't open because it's locked. I'm to lazy to just dig my keys out and unlock the door and nock for Juanita to open it. I knew it would give her a chuckle, one more thing to add to my wyrd morning. Finally in the van and on my way to work. I thought of nothing but why do things happen and do all things happen for a reason. The best that I could come up with, is that if there has to be a reason it's only to allow YOU the free will and choice to accept the things that happen. I could give many examples of people that I know who don't accept the things that happen and hang on to the negative instead of accepting that LIFE happens and its up to the person to live life (be positive) or not enjoy life (be negative).

Well just thought I'd share my thoughts of this morning. Hopefully you got the gist of my morning. It was a wonderful morning and I haven't laughed that much in a while. If I can have so much fun with things going wrong, bring it on, I want to live my life, I want everyone to live their lives. Have the best damn Thanksgiving ever!

Love and Light,

and a little brakeage,

Brad.E

Well after 8 weeks of classroom training I finally got my first hands-on experience with hospice patients. Last Friday I met with my mentor at Angela Hospice. He will be training me for a couple of months till I feel ready to go on my own. Currently I'm not sure what all I can do but am looking forward to the experience. I can't describe how moving it is to be able to help others in need especially at the end of life. My mentor has so much compassion for these people and other volunteers. It's hard to put into words but the night was filled with emotions that seemed to bubble up inside. At times I wanted to cry but they where more like tears of compassion and love that I felt for the patient, staff and volunteers. I feel this opportunity will not only allow me to help others in need but will also help me inside. I have not even come close to the realization of what changes are in store for me. Part of the reason for volunteering  was to give back and help others but of course there is that part for me. The part of learning about death, learning to be compassionate, being able to hold a dying persons hand and not being afraid. One day I will be a different person, one filled with joy and love and a knowing of death.  To be able to open the door and welcome Yama!

Thursday night at the center. What a good time. I've just gotten back from TMI (The Monroe Institute) for my week of Heartlines. I didn't have much time to prepare for Thursday night.
Attendees where Shirely, Dana, Bev, Victoria, Leslie and I. Leslie shared her great retreat in NewYork at a Sonia Choquette workshop. I went over the happenings from the prior week at TMI. We did some mediations for being in the heart space. Things that I had picked up the week before. Seemed to go over pretty well. We did the "I love  you" circle, heart space meditation, aura meditation, then while sending love. I handed out some Sonia stuff on CD's along with papers from Eckhart "Stilness Speaks".
We had our Channeling Development Circle at the end. It was only Dana, Victoria, Shirley and I. Audibly it was pretty quite. But we did have a swift cool breeze that decided encircle us and hang out in front of Victoria. I could not find a "physical" explanation for it. We got the flourescent light bulb out  and used our energies to light it. Still struggling with myself as to how the bulb is lighting.

This week I plan on going over "The Five Tibetan Rites" and working with the energy body. I feel that after working with these every morning for a year I've realy been having some energy movements. Enough to scare me at times. So the search for answers and awareness moves on. Oh - I do have a surprise for the group, something that Wendy showed us at TMI. The whole hand energy thing and being able to lift a 200 pound person out of their chair with two fingers. Can't wait. :)
Brad.E

 

This morning I get out of bed and put my pants on. I'm standing next to the bed and can't understand why my jeans are like five sizes to big. I tell myself I must have worn them to many days in a row, that's why they are so stretched out. I look down again and just can't quite figure it out. These pants are so darn big, hmmm... Next thing you know I'm drinking my morning coffee getting ready for work. I have my jeans on and HEY :) I remembered my false awakening, pants are fitting fine. Just wish I could have been  more cognizant of my conscious state, I missed an easy OBE. I don't classify them as one if the awareness is not there. :(

My interests are in personal development. Some physical but mainly on a spiritual/energy level. To borrow some of Robert Monroe speak - "We are more than our physical bodies". Back in 2003 is when I really started to question the reality of our physical lives and does it just end there. I got hooked watching John Edward the medium on TV which made me question the whole “What happens after death?” Which in-turn led me to OBE’s and Robert Monroe’s books. I immersed myself into many books and made my first trip to Faber, Virginia to the famous Monroe Institute in 2004. I have sense made 3 other trips to the Institute for their week long conscious expanding retreats. In the middle I’ve taken a few workshops in Reiki- Energy Healing- Psychic Development- Channeling to just name a few. I currently host a Metaphysical Circle every Thursday night at The Center for Integrative Well Being in Plymouth. This allows me to stay focused on my goals and brings together people with similar interests. It is also a safe place where we can all share our paranormal experiences with like minded people. We are all part of the puzzle enabling each piece to grow and expand to create the whole.

Hey, just talking out loud here. Must definitely add Maroon 5's Song "Won't go home without you" to your mp3 player. This opens up my heart chakra. I love it. Moves me in ways that is hard to describe. It gives me that feeling of just floating in bliss with the love of your life. Having no cares in the world, knowing that everything will be alright and that "love" is the glue that will keep it all together. Makes me feel warm inside and brings back memories of love.

Well where to start I just had the best week of my life at The Monroe Institute. The program was Heartlines and the Trainers where Pennny and Kevin. I could type a book about the experiences and the lovely people there. One thing that I do want to mention is that this is the second program, Lifeline being the other, that when I got back home the OBE's kick in for a few days. I know my energy centers where opened but the first few days back after the programs they sure seem to kick in. I got home Saturday afternoon and Monday night I had an OBE and today Tuesday I took a nap out in the van at lunch and had another short OBE. I love the experience just wish I had more control over them. I know the energy body has alot to do with it. I just have to find a way to stay in that heart space that was opened up during the program. 

Well I guess it was worth it. Seemed like it took forever to upload those darn photos.
Must be a simpler way. One photo at a time!!!! Any way it's done. Check out the photos in "my photo" section!

Ok why is this so darn frustrating?
I should be able to just grab ALL my photos and add them.
There has to be a better way than one at a time!
Oh, is it worth it. I shall forge ahead.